The MOON!

It is the full moon night,
The moon is big and so bright,
It lights up the darkness sky,
With many stars are near by,
I sit alone on the roof wondering if someone out there have the same habit of being liked,
Viewing the moon and stars when they are sad inside,
Or when they are feeling not so right,
Or when they are missing those beautiful lies,
From someone they promise to love till they die,
Or just when they are falling in love with someone else nice,
That make them feel so high,
Or that make them feel they cannot anymore hide,
But no matter what reasons of their insides,
The viewers would leave little smile,
With little hope that never dies,
And it is their future might that leads then to a win fight........never lose hope!
THE MOON, I miss you!

Let Her Go!

Well you only need the light when it's burning low
Only miss the sun when it starts to snow,
Only know you love her when you let her go,

Only know you've been high when you're feeling low,
Only missing road when you're missing home,
Only know you love her when you let her go,
and you let her go.

Staring at the bottom of your glass,
Hoping one day you'll make a dream last,
But dream comes slow and they go so fast,

You see her when you close your eyes,
and one day you'll understand why,
Everything you tough, and it dies,

Staring at the ceiling in the dark,
Same old empty feeling in your heart,
Cause Love comes and it goes so fast,

When you see her when you fall asleep,
and never to tough and never to keep,
Cause you love her too much and you dive to deep,

Well you only need the light when it's burning low
Only miss the sun when it starts to snow,
Only know you love her when you let her go,
and you let her go......................................

Game Over!

I have been to IFL siting alone with a very headache and almost fall down. I walked up and down, front and back, went to all canteen and also went to library or all banks of wells. After hours of waiting and searching, finally, I realize that she has really gone. She will never come back.

Never and ever.........

I miss you!!!

It has been quite long time since you decided to leave me. How are you? Your health is ok? Gain any weight? How is your heart? Are you still remember me?

I still read your long sms you sent to me. and everytime I read, it touches my heart. I am also still viewing our sms in the chat converstation during my stay in Japan. They are sweet and I can feel back how life during that time was. It was a nice time to me.


I want that life back, sometimes.


Of course, I miss you and listen to your songs most of the night!

Complicated!!!!

Time flies is always said by many people. But, I admit that 2012 is just too fast; It is too fast.

There are million things came across my life. Many complicated things; many unexpected things and many unwanted things. 

It seems that the whole year of 2012 had been spent for only work. Starting at 7am-6 to 7 or 8 pm. Yes.....sometimes, I just got too tired. But I do love my work. It keeps me learning new things. My ACCA course had been zero for the whole year. No paper had been examed as I most of the time spent my weekend with my boss at the province doing some social and political work.

I really have no time to even think about my past or even has not time to review what I have done from day to day. Each day, I just survive with working and enjoying life with whatever I can. This is the only way that keep me away from being sad. 

To this point, I really doubt what makes me sad?? Don't ask me, I myself have no idea what is going on with my head. But, to what I have known, maybe I have done so much wrong about sth or with someone. 

I had car crash twice; one time was serious and I don't know whether the one who hit my car still alive or what.......I felt so regret for not be responsible for what I had encountered. But, everytime I go to pagoda, I always wish that guy a better life and hope that god cut some of my age for him/her. That is not possible, I know, but I have no idea what I can do for the victim. Sorry guy.......I have cried for u too.....I do wish that you are alive and have already recovered from the wound. Best wish to you.......

I can tell you that I have lost myself in 2012. I don't what is going on...Maybe too much stress? too lonely? too scary?? whatever it is...........all are my faults................

I also lost my most favorite poetry and writing book. This book is really handy for me. Every time I read it or write on it, it just makes me feel good, comfortable and encourage. I have read and written about it for more than two years but I lost it in 2012. I really have no idea why I lost it. I am so forgetful, careless and stupid. The book is called Mic; I bought it from Japan during Tsunami time. Now it is gone, but every minute I am free or before my bed time, I always miss it and recall my memory on it. Those sweet words I wrote and those poem I made. I do hope that one day I can just find it back. But, maybe it is just a dream. I love it and still love it forever. 

See?? my writing is damn bad. I cannot organize my ideas well. This can tell that my brain is stupidly disordered. I am trying to find myself back and set up my living life again. I can't let work dominates too much on my life. I need to balance...............

Hate my writing.................and hate myself too, these day.

I will rewrite this writing again on my holiday...........................sigh......

LOVE!!!

LOVE...

I LOVE THE CONCEPT OF LOVE
TO BE IN LOVE
TO FEEL LOVE

BUT I HAVE ABUSED THE WORD OF LOVE
USED THE ONE WHO LOVED

I LOVE THE FEELING OF LOVE
THE DEPTH OF LOVE

BUT I HAVE RUINED THE EMOTION OF LOVE
THE SENSITIVITY OF LOVE

I LOVE TO BE TOUCHED BY LOVE
MADE BY LOVE
MAKE LOVE

BUT I HAVE MISTREATED THE CARESS FROM LOVE
THE KISS OF LOVE

I LOVE TO LOVED BY LOVE
BOUND BY LOVE

BUT I HAVE LOST THAT LOVE
I BROKE MY LOVE
AND NEGLECTED OUR LOVE

I LOVE TO PICTURE LOVE
PAINT LOVE

BUT I HAVE DRIED LOVE
STOLEN LOVE

I LOVE TO WALK WITH LOVE
TALK TO ME LOVE
SAY IT AGAIN LOVE
OVER AND OVER…LOVE
BUT I HAVE RAN FROM LOVE
MUTED THE WORD LOVE
AGAIN AND AGAIN…LOVE

I LOVE TO LOVE YOU STILL LOVE
FEEL LOVE
HEAR LOVE
SPEAK LOVE

LOVE ME LOVE
LOVE MY KIND OF LOVE
LOVE THIS LOVE
LOVE…LOVE…LOVE...

I AM LOVE…


lerato shuping

You always broke up your promise!!

From the first day that I know you, I do remember very single word you said to me; especially, all your promises to me! I really have nothing to say at all, since you are not mine anymore and you don't love me anymore. Your heart just for only your man! I am just a loser that you abandoned and you would never consider anything and you would never remember what you had promised me!

Yes, you never put me in your heart! and maybe you did not even remember your sadness day when you were broken up with your boyfriend. And you never know that how hard I had tried to comfort you, to make you smile and to make you feel warm. Finally, you just put me down and broke up my heart and left me cruelly. You just left me the feeling that your ex-boy friend gave to you!

But I can tell you that I am 1 million times hurter than yours.....You dropped out one tear but I dropped out 1,000 tears. I am so disappointed to love and to give all my heart and care to a liar. I do hate a liar but finally I met a big liar.....

I dont angry you because it is your right to break up with me, to abandon me and to lie to me; but I do hate myself since I can't stop this feeling sometimes.